How she entered my mundane world

“Welcome”

Its a reply to “thank you” , yes

but it is also the word we use to greet someone approaching us.

Entering our house,

Our room,

Our personal space.

Our world 

They are doing the walking,

They are the ones taking the action.

All interactions between two souls are a two way street 🐾

Even saving.

I didnt save you and you didnt save me but hands held, we’re frozen like an alabaster statue.

We are honing a rock-solid soul strength. One to pull the other to climb and both prepositions of these verbs are ‘up’ my friend. 

 I dedicate this post to my friend who just turned 19 on June 6th 🌹🎉💃🏻

HAPPY BELATED 19th BIRTHDAY 

Nur Rahatul Ain bt Ismail 🥰

See you next Wednesday 🍂

Alone ? No you’re not

Heyy Assalamualaikum everyone 👻

Burning the midnight oil, sometimes i find myself being scared...especially when i realize im the only one who is wide awake. Well, the rest of my roommates always sleep early or sleep at their friend’s house so its kinda normal when its just me and Ain in the room.

The thought of being wide awake while doing some unnecessary stuff late at night, sharpen my senses. Im startled by the smallest sound. Not to mention that i have overeactive imagination lol , so when im scared my brain conjures an unending train of scary thoughts 😅

Since i was a kid, i was always interested in ghosts and paranormal phenomena. I wish something weird and cool would happen 😛 well i did watched Harry Potter and stuff related to that ahahaha ...probably because of my rather unusual taste. 

Believe it or not , i actually experienced a weird stuff last semester. Sometimes i hear some ominious laughter (it might be from my wild imagination tho 😂) In the end, my fear turned to irritation and then combined with curiosity, to courage. I dont directly told my friends about it, i just wait for the time to pass smoothly so that my friends and roommates wouldnt get scared and completely forget it. Truth to be told, i actually wrote an essay (for my assignment) out of it lmaoo. Yaaaa i kno its crazy cuz my lecturer actually gave us high marks for ‘creativity’ HAHAHAHAHA OK 

P.s./ being a Stephen King fan really sparks my creativity for writing a horror story 🥴

Calculations of life

Hey Assalamualaikum everyone 💃🏻

Its my second semester break and I havent update anything in the past few weeks so ...

Originally I dont like math at all. But looking closely, it has much imagery to write about
For instance, i find that the graphs of trigonometric functions are a perfect depiction of depression. My best friend and i were surrounded by multiple forms of depression as kids whether we saw it by imitating, nurturing or experiencing, the reality is that most people are silently fighting with their own struggles.

Some started at a low point, while some started at a high. They've been crawling their way up ever since and while others had their whole world continuously keeps dragging them down. Whenever they hit a high, they drop themselves down again to the lowest of lows. While some hit the lowest point, they jump back up to the highest to fight again.

Can you guys get the picture ? About the trigonometric functions graph ?

Its a short post , but i guess this is enough :)

a barely staying alive college student ( ｡_｡)

Assalamualaikum and hey everyone 💖

Whats up ? So um I've already started my second semester in college and life is getting harder and harder. I was expecting this before but what I didnt know that I WASN'T READY for this.
Well it was my bad cuz i didnt anticipated well enough for this semester.

5 weeks . FIVE WEEKS AND I AM BARELY BREATHING.

I need some space too you know . But i guess it is my own fault that these happened.

I've always been wasting my precious time doing nothing worth mentioning and always regret it at the end . So the next day , I ought to be productive for the whole day. (niat je lah dalam hati) but then what i did was exactly the same as yesterday 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 Im so sad with myself .
Oh by the way , do you wanna know something ? I legit writing this post while pending my other super duper important assignment HAHAHAHA HOW WORSE CAN I GET THO. Basically ive been missing the day where i shared my daily lives in this blog. For a minute , can you guys gimme a break !
I wouldnt actually wanted to tell you guys what happened to me during those five freaking weeks because it actually didnt go well like what i planned it to be. There was still happy moments tho, spending time with friends , stay up late together watching movies (hahaha so this is why i always procrastinate my works) , gossiping with each other (im not talking back behind others , chill fam), telling jokes (eventho banyak lawak hambar) . Hey , its not that bad actually .
Its just that it became chaotic weeks for me just because all the events i joined and it literally took away my peaceful life. I know i shoudnt write it like its a bad thing but what i really want to point out is that my carelessness of managing my time carefully. All these rants i wrote is for myself. For my own flaw. Because i knew im not perfect but i need to be and organize my life so that i can actually enjoy my life as a college student before i step out as a full fledged adult.

I drifted further away from my childhood dream.
Send help please.

Um maybe not .
Cuz im the one that can save myself. I do aware of the fact that as a muslim, we are the one who need to start doing good deeds if we wanted to change ourselves .

From Quran, in surah ar Ra'd verse 11 .
"Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls)."

After listening to this verse continuously , I felt calm and collected and started to reorganize my schedule and work. It is indeed true. Thats why ladies and gents , I really wanted to share to you guys that whatever happened to you , always remember not to forget al Quran and as-Sunnah .

My mom said , being in a hardship is actually a sign of love from Allah.
Why ?

I’ll continue this on the next post 💃🏻

Thanks for coming to my ted talk 💆🏻‍♂️

Byeee and assalamualaikum 💞

Im satisfied (≧∇≦)/

Assalamualaikum and hello guys ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

The results for my final exam already came out yesterday lol
and you guys wouldn't believe how the hell it came out like literally after midnight . HAHAHAHA IKR .  

Truth to be told , yesterday was like a tipping point of time . Obviously you would want to know your own results and all that stuff . But ive been doing a lot of thinking about this matter , its like this is gonna be the one to set me off on one of two different paths in front of me . Success . Stargazing . Simplicity . Despair . It would act like the broken back-bone to the skeleton of my life .

Like others , i found difficulty in concentration and application , yet i overcame it successfully . Alhamdulillah . I hope and believe that i am to wander off on the path to my success once the events of tomorrow have unfolded , leaving the troubles of the road behind me and not encountering those troubles again on the darker path . However , unlike Alice who stuck in the wonderland , i will be skipping along hand in hang with BRAIN , COURAGE , AND HEART .

Many asked me how do i score for my exams . Simple . DONT FREAK OUT 👊

I might post some tips about how to manage your uni life in future .

Adios and Assalamualaikum

Pour your heart out

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone 💂

Do you guys still remember about my previous post where i mentioned about being insecure and afraid of changes that happened in my life and this world as well ?
Ive been reading one of my friend's blog about her daily lives and one of them caught my attention .

I got attached to the post , or should i say rants , because i can totally relate to her probs cuz we were both students who just left the high school life like last year already .


I would like to share a story of my friend meeting a total stranger and blurted out her concerns to that stranger . You know , i think she felt a great sense of relief after being asked by the uncle to bare her soul about her innermost worries and anxieties .

If you guys are interested , you guys can click here for the first part and here for the second part .

Truth to be told, it is easier to talk to someone who didnt actually know you irl . Stuff happened and they wont judge you for who you are . I'd like to point out the importance of let it all out . Being able to trust someone is not that easy . And as a muslim , i know that we should always rely on Allah the Almighty . But in various situations , you could say that Allah already planned for you to meet/know someone and that someone might have the answer you're looking for .

You seek for forgiveness and asked Allah how to give you a peaceful life , plead to Allah day and night to stop all the sufferings you had in your life .

Do you know how does Allah answers our doa (s) ?

It is possible that Allah gave you the asnwers for all your worries through His creation ; human .
Probably our family , our friends , our acquaintances , strangers or even animals etc

My point is , from a stranger point of view , they wouldnt know how we are really like irl . We have our own circumstances but strangers can be a good listener 😌

This is just my personal opinions , no hard feelings tho .

Bak kata pepatah melayu ; buang yang keruh , ambil yang jernih
(this is in malay)

In English , i can say ; take the meat and leave the bones

Yeah something like that .
Thats all for today 💜
Assalamualaikum and good night teehee

I have a request .

Assalamualaikum everyone and hello guys 🙋

I always wanna quit .
It never ends

Especially when you're in that age .
Rather than that , there's something that's been bugging me .
Lately , well not really , but i felt like time was passing too quickly and with the future ahead me and such ...
Have you ever felt that ?
Even though they say that i am already an adult . I felt happy but at the same time nothing .
It just i didnt feel anything about being an adult or i dont think i deserved to be called an adult because i know that deep in my heart im still a child . Im not matured enough . I often being told that age doesnt define maturity and i agree .

It could be that the weird feelings I sometimes felt with my friends was because of this after all .
I can assure you guys i am normal , it just i thought i can handle this with ease but it turns out its possible that i felt stressed .

Hahahaha to be honest , im bothered about something . Career plans

I still think im a kid . And i dont even think about this career plans seriously . Pernah la once in a while , after garduated from high school and stuff . Thats all . Nothing more .
I also having a hard time dealing with this stuff okay 😩😩😩

They say i can adapt well when things around me changes . No la , i hate changes .
Despite that , Ive been trying to imitate adults while growing up .


Hahahaha well i guess i can try harder .
I ran away from everything too often tho
I know i dug my own grave

THERE'S A LIMIT TO ALL THE STRESS I CAN HANDLE BY MYSELF

I know i should talk it out , but i cant . My feelings , the things buried deep in my heart , I dont know which words i should use to convey them . Thats why i took the easiest route . Its good if i dont have to use my head . Its good if i dont have to think at all . Even tho everything is fine , even tho i thought things would stay like this forever , I wonder when did i start getting angry and frustrated with myself for not being able to do anything ?

Eventually

I would probably be the one left behind .

I have a request .

Everyone , please dont leave me behind .